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Audition Requirements

This is if I was good and left home to a prominent school for graduate students, so I wouldn't be stuck feeling as old.


"The prescreening recording must include one movement of a concerto (accompanied or unaccompanied) and one movement of solo Bach."


"A movement of a concerto from the standard repertoire by a composer such as Mozart, Mendelssohn, Tchaikovsky, Bruch, Vieuxtemps, etc.

Prepared repertoire should include either the first or the last movement including cadenza.

Two contrasting movements from an unaccompanied Bach sonata or partita.

An etude from one of the standard etude books, such as those of Kreutzer, Fiorillo, Rodé, Paganini, or Dont.

Three-octave major and minor scales and arpeggios."


That's actually a lot of work, especially with my injuries.

Plan - Violin

I'm trying to learn Suzuki 1-10.  I'm almost finished with 2.

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Depression / Trauma

I wish I could go to school, but I'm not good enough at violin.

People just create more problems in a "relationship" I have.  It embarrasses other people in their life.

People use me as an excuse as a point of guilt.

Is it a sin to say if I seem to fumble I'm not good enough to live an okay life and be treated okay?  I was so good all growing up, it was dangerous.  I was just wondering.  It seems to be my life.  Ever since I couldn't easily succeed in a college I went to Up North during a hurricane Down South.  It was free, too, save for the plane tickets, lucky me.  We never had classes that hard when I was young.  So, I kinda quit now.

It seems the world is becoming more degenerate.

Family used to be a prize.

Many Late Boomers seem to be very casual about the sacredness of family the rest of us had to follow.  It even ends up with me being the bad guy all too often.  People think you can avoid talking about conflicting conundrums and things will get better, but they do talk and get a good time.  I just feel like a plastered lie.

Is someone you know like a toad or more like a poison dart frog?

Slipping away.

Am I having more fun now so that I have little fun later?

Money

I'm spending it on things I need or that make life go right.  I've gotten some things at the store and online.  Soon, I'll have more money to save.

I've also been eating out.  Maybe, I should try something less expensive like Subway.

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I don't have to jog anymore.  I can get my heart rate up with workouts on my cell.  Wait, but jogging is a 30 minute important part of my system.  Just get in those other workouts, too, will I?

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Me Singing Now

Central Florida likes to make things hard.

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Me Singing Now

Do you ever see people out-of-control attractive and worry that people will hate you?

Do you feel "comfortable" inside or "comfortable" outside?  Like, when kids go to museums and things, they get cozy.

People like to make fun of people who are borderline age of associating with Late Boomers as a parental generation.

Take racism out on me instead of Asians.

I'm cool with people, but because I am closer to others does not mean I want others to impose themselves on me.

They make kids feel silly if they are Italian, but the older adults are even sillier.  I mean, they think the kids will be embarrassed to be overly obsessed with being cute, but the older adults are in your face and fighting tooth and nail for their race, against made up enemies they start a situation with probably.

I wonder if Germans leave the North and Midwest because of more Germanic people there or Scandinavians.

There was no use to fight Germany because it kills the people fighting for no reason though it's good to save Jews.

Blondes look good if they have very straight hair.

Late Boomers are superior.

They have the egg from the mom, which is before the cutoff date.

Some people think younger generations are worthless, but I think it's unfortunate and they may experience problems if they want to say other people can't see Late Boomers as a parental generation unit.  I thought people thought kids are forever.  They still need their parental generation, and their parents can be good to them.

So..  "Don't worry.  Be happy."  If you don't worry so much about what you deserve, you learn to be happy.

A flaw of Southern Europeans is they lose it and make their point to hurt me, and it doesn't solve all their problems.

It's not true that people from older generations encompass me like I'm just an appendage.

I've moved both north and south more than once.

It's clear Italians can be fun and nice, and yes they do burn out.

They hold back other races from being cute because they know that other people will make fun of them.

They must know their place.

Some Southern Europeans are interesting.

People act like I'm not that good, just because of my race, like I didn't do enough with myself.

Some people seem insufficient if all they think about is looking European just enough to get by, if they're already Caucasian.

What are people doing over in Japan?  Is it the Latinos in the Philippines, yes, that was most hated.

I don't see people who can tell me what to do, like what to think about and what to forget about, like them.

Other Caucasians are aggressive.  Some of them do it all the time, and you wonder what's there.

They use it to get popular.

Children are always cute, and they act like it means there's more there when they should stop.

Hitler!

Why did Spanish people mess with Asia?  (The Philippines.)

...because then I could afford to do other things, anyway, such as violin.

I should have been rich and famous.

Acting.

Mad European people probably are lazy racially, just get rid of the Asians and go to sleep because they work so hard to not eat enough and stay skinny and then grow taller, too, but not stronger.

It doesn't make sense when darker races are mean to me.

People get popular by putting me down.  They have nothing special to offer.  They just do that as a temporary excuse and then don't know what to do.

I am annoyed at everyone for putting on an act like things are all that when they're not.

He and most people avoid opening up.  They however condemn you for not showing yourself more, like you're not all that.

I would never listen to that.

What a joke!  I know my dad goes back and thinks I say bad things sometimes.

I don't like people telling me what to do, like ruining my life because of what I blog about.

Modern life is an act.  People are bitter and want you to suffer and work if you want a good life.

I'll assume you're all Southern European: Italian or Spanish.

They probably have racial problems.

People keep acting like Asian is all these other things instead.

Sometimes, I want people to "know" my races and sometimes I don't.

People like to flirt with Southern Europeans and bother me.

I'm overplayed but nothing interesting happens.

Some people pretend to be something they're not, like maybe only people with families from NYC are okay in Florida.

New York is very overly individualistic.  They just get set off when it comes to their own personal life and people in it.

People don't have another solution to blame other people they dislike for existing when it comes to problems in school.  They blame nice people they dislike just for existing elsewhere or who are being well-behaved.

Why do people perk up like it's preschool only when it comes to things like people 18 and under with mental disorders or similar issues?

Why did everyone forget about America?

...because no one can force you to take medicine unless you are locked up.

Psychiatrists pinpoint children over adults.

If people had more power, they would separate the US from Europe and major countries like Germany and their counterparts.

I would go the route of psychiatry rather than psychology, but I won't do either one because I want to be a performer / creative artist.

People hate me sitting in my chair in my room.

Jews may seem nice to other races, but there are people there who are mean racially to other races.

White people want other races to speak their mind without being stubborn because it's confusing to see them like that.  They find out later it's okay.

Men aren't smarter, they're just stronger.

On TV, they said some races are considered insuperior, but I know they are jealous and the other races are just different.

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Issue #1 - An Older Lady I Know Being Exploited and Excessively, Inappropriately Stimulated

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Why did they spoil my education?  What am I, your slave in Hell?

Did people just "wind up" that way?

Why does it seem that people from Louisiana get easily overly upset and cruel even to even the best?

Just roll out the kinks?

Is being shaped like a troll or ogre considered humble and sustenance?

So, I'm considered bad is the only differing factor.

Is Louisiana just behind, or is New Orleans?

"Hanging on the Line"

People act like they're in charge.  In the end, dreams don't come true, anyway, so why wait?

So, is puberty something that makes you grow taller because I've seen giant babies ... or is it something that makes you grow slower once you get it?

How tall are we at 12, now?

Why do good people think they are important?  Like when a situation is too tough, they become stubborn but still act like they fixed it.

Louisiana was weird moving there.  It wasn't as social, in that people wouldn't talk to me and said I wouldn't talk to them.  I also was self-conscious I stopped growing and was no longer tall for my age.  (I am queasy about the idea of being taller than most everyone, though, if that happened.)

Some people actually think I'm having a "moment" if I think something is spectacular.

Why are some people made to feel stupid about talking?

I do good things and it doesn't matter and I don't get anything like others because people don't like who I am.

I plan to live off of making CDs of me playing violin.

I can never win.

I'm glad I've sized up the situation with Florida versus the rest of the US.

People here become attuned like they are using a baby thermometer.

I like it where people just know what they're supposed to.  If you decide you want it that's when you're supposed to.  I know Orlando sees the worst of it and exaggerates, in things in general already.

So, why talk about things so they don't make sense, like that's how you listen to your elders?

Germans believe everyone is different, even within the same family, but German Americans think each family "has" to be all on the same side just because they wanted it to be that way.  They don't deal with individuals.  They start as a family.  I already did that.

Germans or German Americans are also witches.

Women in Florida are witches.  They are overly protective of their brood.  They think they are all that because they are from Florida, but I am from Florida and I don't act that way because I didn't always live there though I am from there, originally.

When someone in authority agewise is nice to me, someone will say, "Where is the excitement?" like they're friendly with me.

The Grape Vine

I just realized people's logic against me's only explanation is that I'm in trouble, when I shouldn't be.  What happened to the thinking that we shouldn't go around criticizing everyone in the world to death.  That makes cool, sexy people mad.

It's not fun to be embarrassed for no reason too much.

So, if you get sick and therefore can't be top notch in life, do you wind up in Hell? because you're "not good enough?"  Being sick can mean a lot of things, like being tired.

Do you have to be German to be accepted generation-wise?  I mean that there is an ideal for a generation, and Germans are also very idealistic in that manner.  I mean after seeing Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory (1971.)  Also, why is it too late to be like that?  Generation X was denied to identify culturally like Late Boomers; however, it is important for Late Boomers to for their own reasons.  It is hard to believe that everyone likes things like that because they professed otherwise, just to surprise people like me later into being seen as spoiled for liking it and therefore being better at it; in the end, the good people are seen as spoiled for being so cool and no one cares about them anymore, they just care about the bad, greedy, foolish people.  England started with liking the bad people because people think being bad makes more fun, maybe because the rules are too tight and there isn't enough fun and good things like before in history.

If I already have German heritage, I also already have French heritage.

Does France make more sense than Germany?  Germany seems to tease you.

Oh, no, not again!

It's going to be September 11th!  Should I go to church?

Do you feel pushed into liking musical theater a lot but not classical?  In the end, do you like very much music?

Cool Singers and Musicians

Theme Song From the Animation "The Hobbit" (1977)
posted July 30, 2017


Johnny Depp's French X Girlfriend and an American Singer
Performed December 2007
Vanessa Paradis (December 22, 1972, Paris)
Suzanne Vega (July 11, 1959, L.A.)


French Contratenor Sings With German Orchestra
2016

The Italian really comes out in different mixes.

I guess young people are still busy learning about "the world" like I supposedly was.

It sounds like Michael Meyers from the Halloween (1978-) movies.

When kids today live forever, will they remember me as something intelligent that they overlooked?  Will I be important as dead?  I wasn't afraid to be cremated, to be passed on to posterity, which I don't want children of my own.

Did you ever earn anything?

Older people could care less about us, now.

I'm viral!

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Bad people want to switch places with the good people except the good people will be labeled as bad and not really do anything wrong to them.

Interpreting Classical Music - With or Without Help

Is it more fun to see a more large ensemble perform newer classical non-Romantic music or to see a soloist whip it up themselves?

I'm sure Orlando ruined it.  At dinner today, I looked at someone who looked like she was trying to copy an older lady I have a "relationship" with who is being exploited.  She couldn't seem to give me a straight look.

Mourning

You know that feeling that everything is wrong in your life and you're freaked out like it's a nightmare and you don't know what happened?  I feel that it will never be better for me.  So, yea, I fee, like I'm in bed and woke up on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" a lot.